Yes I can.
Then I'm outta here, I'm leaving HK. I know leaving is not going to solve any real problems, it's not going to solve my depression, but I just need to get it out of my system. I need to get out of here, make some mistakes, waste some time, and realise I'm a fool.
But then at least I did what I wanted to.
I'm sick of sitting here thinking of things I wish I am doing with my life.
I'm sick of knowing exactly what's wrong but not changing it with my own hands.
I'm sick of being a pathetic work slave without a life and always moaning about it.
I'm sick. Physically and Mentally.
I need to get out, get a life, get a plan, get a taste, get me.
Talking to my friend tonight has unclogged me and made me realised, she said, you've been living in UK most of your life, and you're just been back to HK for 2 years, what did you expect? When you were young, you adapted to UK very quickly, but now you're not young anymore, you've got your mind set, so HK is not easy to take in. You're still stuck in UK memories and lifestyle and not letting go of the past. You're not even trying.
I neve realised this, but I guess I have not let myself let go of UK at all. In my head, it's still this wonderful place where I could be whoever I wanna be and do whatever I wanna do.